Spring is springing in spurts and gusts as it tends to do in late March. It’s hard not to marvel at the small blooms that not only hold on through the rains and winds, but even seem to thrive on brittle branches and in over damp soil. Spring brings promise, hope, and the kind of surprising beauty that is unbidden, so all the more delightful.
Disorientation
I wish I could say my spirit has been soaring along with the eagles and the heron I regularly see on my morning runs, but the truth is that I can’t shake the feeling of disorientation. The petals and colors of spring do lift me a bit, temporarily, but this moment we are living in is so strange, loathsome on many levels, and angering that it feels like our great big gorgeous earth has tipped over into its own shadow, and the future could go either way.
Honestly, I don’t see anyone thriving at this moment. It seems like everyone is in survival mode where energy is getting stuck in fear and anger, and as much as I try to avoid the trap of anger, I must admit that it’s been a valuable force in my runs lately. Anger is energy and creates adrenaline which feels good in ways, so it’s easy to see why some people get stuck in the trap of cultivating it. It can also trigger feelings of being ‘right’ and ‘better’ than others which creates dopamine, and thus a cycle of addiction. If you have ever found yourself jonesing to get on social media and spout ‘truth’ and argue with others, you have experienced this cycle first hand. I’m not saying anger isn’t warranted, but it’s not a creative force, and if we want a stake in creating the future, our own and/or the collective’s, we need to find a way out of anger and into energy that moves forward.
Moving Forward
It seems to me, that requires digging down and digging in. The blossoms that are surviving the spring winds and rains are rooted in soil and on trees that don’t fret and squander resources. In order to blossom, we too must tap into our roots, what we value, what adds to our life, the small and the big things that could be traditions or are unique specialties all of our own. A small thing for me for example, is when I cook a meal, I feel more like myself. It’s not always what I feel like doing, but when I do it, the satisfaction of the process and product feed me in a way that little else does. The act of creating is so important to feeling fulfilled as a human, that I really do think it’s an essential ingredient in turning survival mode into thriving.
In a further effort to root and bloom out of disorientation, I intend to start making herbal concoctions again now that I am teaching less spring quarter. Although there are many aspects about teaching English to immigrants and international students that I love, there is something deeply exhausting about it for me. Any time in my life that I’ve been teaching a lot of hours, my capacity for creativity has fallen dramatically. Teaching English demands creativity too, but in different ways, heady ways, whereas working with herbs is far more of a sensory experience. The intellectual brain is online, but instead of being a key player, it’s more of a supporting actor, which is where it’s most comfortable in my personal noggin. I haven’t decided what my first creation will be in this new season, but once I decide I will share it here and would love to hear how others are connecting to their creative sides during destructive times.
Cherry Blossoms
The blooms picture above, are cherry blossoms. In the Pacific Northwest, as well as in Japan and in many other places, some of the most famous spring buds are the cherry blossoms, which are not only beautiful, but they are also beautifying. Cherry blossoms are used in beauty products all over the world, such as in Stella McCartney’s Restore Cream which touts cherry blossom extract as its most important ingredient. In Japan, they are not only known as beautiful and beautifying, but also as edible. Cherry blossom tea and specialty foods such as candies, mochi, and preserved blossoms are made in Japan as well as cocktails with the blossoms. The University of Washington’s Seattle campus is a draw for cherry blossom lovers all over. You can watch the live cam of them here.
May your spring be full of all the best blooming 🌸🌿🌷.